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Slowly Letting Go
Published on Thursday, April 21, 2011 by

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Every Easter I pack my children in the car and drive to Corolla for three nights and four days of pure heaven.  At 8:30 pm Saturday night, we go to a two-hour sundown Mass at Holy Redeemer Catholic Church.

With all the lights off, a procession begins in to the church with everyone holding a glow stick.  The lights remain off for a good part of the Mass.  My mother and my children are by my side, the ocean is behind us and everything is good.

This year…. this year will be different.  Tomorrow I am still off to the Outer Banks for Easter, but with my daughter as the only passenger.  We will meet my mother there and spend our Easter together, but without my teenage boys.

Each has something to do this weekend.  They both came to me almost apologetically.  “Mom… how would you feel if….”  I think they were surprised I agreed to let them stay.  As my oldest said, “Mom, you will need to get used to this soon anyway.  I’ll be going to college in a little more than a year…”


How do you get used to your sons growing up and leaving you?  It is what you are told to do, but then comes the first Easter when you don’t get to watch them find their Easter baskets.  And your heart feels just a little bit empty.

I will be the first to admit that I have already prepared two Easter Baskets and hidden them in the house for them to find on Easter morning.  It is something they are not expecting, with me being out of town.  While I understand my boys are growing up, the Easter Bunny isn’t quite ready to let go.  And for now, that’s OK.

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  • I like the Easter baskets for the boys. Way to go mom.

    My son will be 41 this year. It goes by so quickly.

    have a terrific Easter weekend. 🙂

  • That sounds like a lovely Easter tradition. I’m sorry your boys won’t be with you this year. It’s typical of teens to want to make their own plans, sooner or later. They sound like thoughtful sons, though.

    • I really missed them… came back today. I DO have to say, the house sure was quiet… a bit relaxing, dare I admit…as soon as I came home I realized just how quiet it WAS! But I will take crazy loudness ANY day over quiet… I missed my guys!

  • My inner Easter Bunny doesn’t want to give up on the Easter baskets, either. I can relate to what you’re saying so much. I miss my little four year old boy who used to stuff his face with chocolate while proclaiming he loved the Easter Bunny more than Santa. How quickly time flies….

    • Wow, those are BIG words…. I am sure Santa didn’t mind!!! So candy was the motivator over toys… that was kind of me as well! Nothing spells happiness like chocolate in my book!

  • Suzie

    My husband is 46 yrs old and still gets an Easter Basket from his mother!

    • HA HA! That is GREAT!!!!!!! Now the BIG question. Does your husband share?? 🙂

  • And they will LOVE knowing you hid them, and feel the warm comfort of your family tradition!

    My four kids are grown and long gone. I won’t kid you, there is still a lingering pain that I hope never goes away, because it confirms for me that raising my kids was THE ONE MOST IMPORTANT THING in the story of my life.

    Happy Easter to you, Katherine, and to your family!

    • No…you look like a BABY in your pictures… you are NOT old enough to have four kids long gone… NO WAY. I simply cannot believe it. What are you eating and what vitamins are you taking?!?!?!??!!!!

  • Awww well at least you have most of the family with you this Easter, they grow so quickly. Enjoy and have a Happy Easter 🙂

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